Did not meet my goals today

| Tuesday, July 6, 2010

Class at 7:30am. Snagged some free tea. Went to math at what I thought was 1pm, but it was 11am, and the same teacher was teaching a math class in the same classroom returning tests from the same day that my math class took a test on. I thought he'd lost my test. I was fooled until a while after I returned to my room, when someone told me to look at the clock. Felt dumb, but hey, more time to work on an assignment due at 5.

When I went to my actual math class, it took a whole hour, not the 15 minutes I thought it would take since it was just a test returning day (the class I mistakenly went to was like that). I had to go to a work meeting at 2:30, which fortunately didn't take long. I went to the library and got to work. I felt like a good student.

But I wasn't working quite fast enough. I polished my assignment at 4:59pm but I didn't give up; I saved it, and uploaded it so I could print from a library computer. The computer took about 4 minutes to log in. I anxiously looked back and forth from the clock to the computer, and greeted Officer Miller as he came by. He observed that the computer wasn't doing anything, and walked away chuckling. I chuckled and covered my face and breathed deeply, peeking through my fingers until it finished setting up Outlook Express configurations and loaded my desktop. Fuck library computers. It took another minute for Firefox to open. Whatever. It was 10 past the hour... I started to lose hope. I printed the document, and the printer made a sound, but nothing happened. I gave it a minute. Nothing. I tried another printer; same thing. Fuck library printers. I gave up. Fine. Can't be mad, it was still mostly my fault I didn't work as efficiently as I could've.

It felt so warm outside--it was a beautiful sunny day. Despite my frustration I planned forward: I had my car parked across the campus from the dorm due to construction in the parking lot, but I figured since I was halfway there, I could fetch my car and park it closer so I wouldn't have to walk as far for carpooling to Baskin Robbins at 7.

Jesus Christ it was a long walk.

It was long and I was tired and my laptop and textbook were heavy.

I got to the car and realized I didn't have my keys.

legs

I made it a few yards back towards the dorm across the vast field before I dropped to the grass, defeated.

sky

defeated.

2 comments:

Tom said...

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Nuggit said...

Good song :)